A Deep Valley

Can we rewind to the fortune cookie again? The valley before the hill business…I thought that was in reference to the lay off but maybe it was about my job? I don’t know, maybe both. I have to have a change in my day job. I wanted to bad to quit yesterday, twice!

The are a ton of suits and fancy titles all around the company these days but do they ever make decisions or logical business type decisions? nope! Why should they? They have the big fancy titles and the fat salary, so what’s it matter than the lowest on the rung is struggling and frustrated?

I know that I have no idea all of the workings of this business but just looking at it from the ground floor and seeing the incredible lack of leadership and acumen for business is ashtonishing. There are so many bad things going on that I can see… what about all the ones that I can’t?

It’s not a place that I’m proud to work anymore. It was when I first started…those first, what, three years? “The Time Before” seems so distant and it’ll never be that way again.

Keeping up with the frustrating and hopelessness of this once great family business is something I do not want to have to do. I need to figure out on a personal level what I really want to do about it. I’d love to leave and go into busiess for myself but I need a better plan than what I currently have. It’s not going to be easier but I’ll be able to live with it easier than with what I’m doing now.