Wishing on a Star

My boss is back at work… so things don’t SEEM so dire but they really are. It’s cray how much has changed since I started at this place. I remembered the hopefullness I had and the non-soul crushing feelings. Ugh.

The saying is that “it’ll get worse before it gets better” but when the fuck will it ever get better?! How much worse? Is there a bottom to this “worse”?

I need the work stress to go away. The bleed over into personal life is messing with me. I’m just exhausted all of the time. This next week I need to NOT be exhausted! I have too much to dooooo!

I feel like I’m in this cycle always haing my life unbalanced. Why can’t everyhing be even and happy?!

Being able to log out of work and still have energy and capacity to create for MYSELF would be astounding.

Someday… SOMEDAY. I’m so tired of saying someday.