I miss you

It's been almost two months and up until now I always dreamed of you still alive. We're having fun, talking, doing whatever… but tonight was different. I had a dream where, for the first time I knew, you had passed. But it was like I JUST learned. I remember curling over on the ground in my dream searching for old jewelry you wore that has fell to the ground and then bam…. I knew you was gone. I lost it in my dream and apparently in real life because while I was screaming and rolled up into a tight ball on the floor in the dream, in real life I was ugly crying. Just tears and snot when I woke.