Mornings & Vacation

Mornings have been a little bit of a struggle the last few days. My getting out of bed has been slowly creeping into later times. A few min here and a few min there… and before I know it, it’s already 6:30. I still am managing to get the things done in the moring that I want though, I guess that’s a plus. I’m very much looking forward to vacation next week. I’m just tired. I dont just mean in the sleepy kind of way either. I need real decompression time and time to really rest. I really want to go offline that whole time period but we’ll see. I still want to write every morning but perhaps maybe just a wee bit later in the morning. Usually in cases like this, my body won’t allow me to sleep in and I end up getting up early anway.

Three more days until I’m actauly free for nine.

I need an outlet. if I can’t manage to do that creatively maybe the makeshit “weight room” in the garage will do. I used to love lifting weights and it just generally made me feel better about myself. Hopefully that feeling still happens. I have four goals that I’d like to accomplish over my time off. 1 - be creative or at least try to, it’s not like just flipping on like a switch… maybe read books if I can’t. 2 - spend time playing videogames with Travis. I really miss doing this. 3 - get the “weight room” set up and use it. 4 - be unplugged for social media. All seem perfectable attainable and easy.

Overall, I really just need a break from being on for everybody else. I’m not an extrovert and I can’t recharge withouth being a hermit for awhile. People exhaust me… even going to get groceries.

Next year camping will happen again. Due to the timing of career change with Travis, it just couldn’t happen this year. It makes me sad but we’ll make do. We have each other and will still have a wonderful time next week AND it’s Halloween!